I binged yesterday, not as bad as I used to, but I still did. I managed to get the rest of the day on track which is a big accomplishment for me and made a super yummy and healthy supper. The normal events following a binge is getting so angry with myself, and choosing not to eat, end up starving and the over eating and the cycle continues for the rest of the day and maybe for a couple days. So yesterday despite the failings of yesterday this is a positive accomplishment, and I decided not to weigh in and make myself feel bad.
I am feeling super overwhelmed as a mom, I have no idea what I am doing. My little guy is growing so fast and I feel like I just can't keep up with him. He is developing leap and bounds and everyday there is a "first" and I am really trying to make sure the house is safe and he is getting all his needs met. Good grief I lost him, in the locked house. I couldn't find him anywhere and it turns out he was behind his bedroom door, but when he doesn't make any noise when you call and call and look in the room and don't see him, you get panicky. There are so many little things that happen like this on a daily basis, it makes it makes me feel overwhelmed and unprepared.
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