Back to normal?

Well the last of our family left today, so after 10 days of visiting with Landon's mom and dad and than my sister and her little family we are back to the normal that our life is.  I'm not sure living in renos can be considered normal.
I've done amazingly well keeping up with the gym and dieting, despite all the distractions.  I saw K yesterday after 6 days without seeing her, and wow I am so sore today.  It was the lunge, squat and barbell combined exercise that just about had me calling for mercy.  I am not sure where she comes up with these things.  So that horrible exercise went like this, lunge with inside leg, move leg back and squat, and switch to the other leg  lunging (while holding a barbell), repeating until I was whimpering to stop...yuck.  Needless to say it was a great workout and there is a reason I am so sore today.
On an interesting note dehydration is the most common reason for cramping muscles, thanks K.

Up to my ears in cuteness

I have been super busy, so sorry about the last few days with no posting.  I have my adorable nephews in town, and they are so much fun, and all my spare time is being spent with them.  I think they are leaving tomorrow.  It has been wonderful to get to know them, and see life through their eyes.
I have been keeping up with the gym and the diet.  The diet has been very hard the last few day, spending it with little kids and people on vacation, there is candy, chips, cookies, pop, juice...oh my!  All I have had, treat wise, is a half (!HALF!) of a cookie.  Seriously people this is hard for me, and how do you tell a two year old who is wanting to share his treats with you that you are on a diet, and that you are working out at the gym to hard to even think about what candy will do to you.  Besides is it ever just one candy or one treat?

Motivation

Motivation is going to be key in the next month. My appointments with K are going down to twice a week and that means I will have to do one weight training day by myself.  I started this am by accident, I got up early (6) to go to the gym only to find out on Sundays it is open 8-5... seriously.  Usually this is not a problem by we are away all day and there would be no time for the gym, and my stress level was telling me that I needed to get a work out in.  So I dug out our weights and did a workout this am at home, not as hard as K as I didn't have all the muscle groups to work out as our house isn't equipped with a gym. But an okay workout, I need to learn to really dig deep with out K this week to make sure that I get as much out of each work out as possible.  The other thing that will happen in two weeks, is according to K I will start gaining muscle and the scale may show less weight loss, to I need to stay motivated during this time and not get discouraged.  Also our kitchen situation leaves much to be desires...as we don't have one yet.  The husband has been working 15+ hours a day with work and there isn't to much that I am able to do, this means I have to get creative in the "kitchen" making up new and tasty, healthy meals this month!  

My Time to Shine

I was talking to a wonderful friend of mine, about a person in my life who makes me feel incredibly insecure.  (the insecurity from me nothing that they have done)  And she reminded me of the amazing things going on in my life and the successes I have accomplished in the past little while and told me that it was my time to shine.  For the last few days that has been my mantra, and it has been helping.  I have a lot to be glad for and there is never any need to compare yourself with others.

Goal Met

So this is almost a months worth of work.  I have lost 4 pounds this week.  So a total of 10 pounds this month.  I am very glad I met my goal. I wish it had of been a bit more. I haven't been to see K yet, but I have weighted myself at home and have officially lost 30 pounds! I am 185 and going to get smaller!  

Reasoning

One of the struggles dealing with depression was wondering "why me?".  Why do I deserve this?  Why if I pray for it to go away it wont? Why can't the doctors make it go away? Why, Why, Why...common words in my vocabulary in the first 2-2.5 years of depression.  I really struggled to make sense of the world that I was living (or suffering) in.  In the past I have seen things very black and white, right or wrong, good or bad, and when you look at life this way you find yourself not being able to enter into the world of others.  I was the first one when I heard someone was depressed to say get over it, wow did I ever have to eat humble pie on those words.  During the last 2.5 years I have come to a realization that this was meant to happen, call it god, karma or the universe, I was meant to have this experience.   And I have become grateful (most days) that I can understand the pain of another, because I have felt pain.  My understanding of other human beings has increase, so has my love and compassion, for this I am grateful to suffer depression.  If we can find the silver lining, the reason, the purpose, to the things we have suffered we can grow and become better human beings. 
PS I AM STRESSING ABOUT TOMORROWS WEIGH IN!!

Killed By KettleBall

Today we introduce the Kettleball, a new form of weights to make regular exercises even harder, brought to you by the letter K!
It was actually a lot of fun to use the kettleball, ever since I saw them used on Biggest Loser I've been dying to try them, and see how they compare to other weights(dumbbells and barbells).  We used them for every single exercise, squats, lunges, tricep curls, leg lifts, crunches, bicep curls, wall squats, and a few others that I cannot remember.  I am glad that K switches things up, that way I never go into a workout dreading any particular exercise and waiting for it to show up, like the plank.  If I had to wait for the plank to arrive every time, I may have quit or at least skipped one appointment.